Fury

Oh mightiest fury,
Thou hath no charm to me.
Nor will thine place exist in GOD's jury,
So haunt me no longer i plea.

Right or wrong

There seems to be no absolute "right". It amazes me how our views change from what we find wrong until we are in a similar situation and wonder why we didn't give others the benefit of doubt. But what's confusing is this way it can get difficult to know what to do. It only helps in telling us to be less judgemental about others.

I remember my very wise Sanskrit teacher once telling us about"Vivek" -the ability to know right from wrong-which distinguishes humans from non-humans. How does that come into play now.I wish I could ask her:( Some teachers are too good to be ever forgotten and I have been very lucky to have many such supporting my throughout my career...even now...they play a "too vital" role. I mean I have never been an extrovert but these gem of people draw can you out and there no need of personal talk or nonsense chitchat. Sometimes pure understanding and relations require very few words. I guess sometimes I remember my teachers more than friends, from childhood, except few close ones.

Teaching Assistants

Teaching Assistantship is like nurturing flower buds....protecting them from weeds and some insects but not all.....being gentle but not completely so...allowing them the space to grow....isolating the ones which may need more attention....
It's a big responsibility but the flowers produced are worth it...though they belong to the owner and not to the gardner nurtured them!

And who can know better than students what new students need...esp those lil quiet and maybe lil slow ones...guidance can do wonders I believe and so can encouragement...esp in those initial steps...

I love it!

Love and friendship

Nothing can be better than having someone with whom you can share anything in the world and to feel safe and know that they understand

Do terrorists have no conscience?

Do terrorists have no conscience? And if they do then how can they live with themselves after killing people...people who they never even knew?
And if they do then are so brainwashed that they believe they are doing right? Are they actually mad?
If so should they be pitied?
I mean you are only wrong if you know that you doing wrong and you continue to do so...
So should the people who train be blamed? Do they do this for private gains? Who is to blame and how can religion be responsible? I mean anyone who believes in God sincerely would realise that religion is something sacred and private and universal. Religions are just different ways of communicating with God. But even the heart is enough for that. To listen your conscience is the truest religion.God cannot like his own creations being harmed...least of all by themselves.
Why don't people understand this simple truth. It's so sad and yet mind boggling.

Andar se yeh awaz aayi hai

Hanste hanste bhi zindagi bhi mein ek khamoshi si chhai hai
Naa jaane kahanse is bheed mein aayi yeh tanhaai hai

Bhaagte bhaagte ek thakaan si aayi hai
Theher ke dekho kabhi, kahan khogayi apni hi parchhayi hai

Har kaamyabi ke piche koi na koi hansi murjaayi hai
Aage badte badte kyunki guzare zamane ki pukar yeh hawa laayi hai?

Sabkuch hote hue kyun kabhi aankhon mein ek nami aayi hai?
kyun rehti hai talash waisi jo kabhi naa poori ho paayi hai?

Apni dil ki gunj to chipaaye na chip paayi hai
Bhulte nhi bhulati kuch baatien yeh aaj fir kaisi yaad aayi hai?

Waqt ne fir yeh kaisi bhuli hui dhun sunayi hai?
Judi hai humse jo yaadein vo kuch chahyi anchahyin hai

Suraj ke hote hue bhi roshni mein parchayi hai
Raasta seedha tha par fir kyun itni thokkar humne khaayi hai?

Andar se yeh awaz aayi hai
Shayad thoda deere hai chalna humein jisse asmaan na sahi , zameen to nazar mein aayi hai.

Movies and Novels...

Learning is what you remember after you have forgotten...
Read lots of novels...wanted to share two...
To kill a mockingbird....Fell below my expectations but loved this sentence...
"I didn't love reading. You don't love to breathe".

Next one...Witch of Portobello and Brida...selected lots of quotes in them...will pen them sometime but too lazy right now....

But what I remember most has almost nothing to do with the theme but it stuck to me( maybe not exactly same words)....
"Do not be irritated but doing dishes or making food...be glad that you have food to make ...and be glad that you have people to share it with you... millions don't."

Read "A walk to remember" and watched the movie also. For the first time I say that the movie is better. It's no unique story...but it's portrayed with such delicateness and subtlety that it's beautiful.
Highlights...
A guy asks her dad for asking the girl out on a date.
The guy asks before he kisses .
The guy fulfils all her dreams before she dies.
The girl guides him to his dreams.
The girl's dad and the guy remain in touch.

"Yup I am romantic any day of the year"...if you can say this, it's a movie of your dreams...

Who knows whats good for you

Had read about the New York law of writing calorie count next to the fast food item....hmm We could do with that law here I guess!

But on second thoughts I wonder if it is a good idea...I mean why not just let people get a life -even out of eating if they enjoy it and are passionate about it. Life is short. But making it sweet can make shorter still!

It's a paradox!

But I personally feel that anything that creates passion is worth it ...it makes you come alive...But passion shouldn't be addiction...And yet I can't think of pasison as but that!

Another paradox.

Solitude

Don't pity your aloneness(not lonliness), enjoy solitude when you get a chance, you wouldn't get it too often!

What matters

It's not always the big things. It's not the strangers at work place. It's the everyday things with people who are part of our everyday life that matter the most. Just because they will understand doesn't mean we should concentrate on the rest...it just gives us more of a reason to take care in those little everyday actions...they would appreciate at heart and we would also feel much better.

Nothing

There seems to be stalemate in life...
nothing to say ,
nothing to hear
how to bear,
as life tumbles into the ocean of nothingness,
nothingness camouflaged by busyness,
the heart dissolves into emptiness

New age political criteria

The polititians want to set reservations everywhere even when they aren't required and only seem to create barriers which don't really exist in this generation and they seem find great pleasure in targeting India's pride-The IIT's.

Well I would love to give it back to them. Let them make decisions for us when they are equal to it. Let there be stringent criteria for people to enter into politics.

I would suggest
1)a minimum graduate degree/ some specialized course
2)with at least 4 years' worth social service and
3)some kind of specialist training institutes could be opened to give moral training as well( may be 6 months' worth).

Well after that, if they decide this then I promise not to object to their decision and neither would others I guess!

And no I am not crazy. The country's leaders need to be educated, sensitive to plight of the people and aware of moral responsibilities.
And each is covered in this criteria. But who will implement it?????

What I say...

Everyone has at least a few minutes' worth conversation to share ....and with some you are meant to share just that!

Love is when you start of with starry eyes,then get back to normal and accept and continue to love the person and suddenly keep getting back the starry eyes for the same person:)

It's strange how people so far away physically
can be closer and people nearby can drift away.

You may not be there to share every moment and every silly secret with me but you are still close to my heart because I think of you and preserve things to tell you !

Does friendship require effort?

It's frustrating to have
conversations like
:"What's up? nothing". Why does that happen?

It's a "too busy world"

A thin veil covers my eyes , my soul , my heart,

It isolates me from this world so big

Where people have no time , no smile and lost heart

Listen to what I say not for once can't you?

No matter how many they may be moments with you seem so few,

Don't you know that I miss you?

.......

Who is the "you" all may ask

It's the world at large

Everyone rushing away with a more important task

Than just a simple gentle friendly chat

When was the last time together you and your mother sat?

Or are you too busy with deadlines, parties and fighting that fat?

.......

Pain isn't only by big things but sometimes lil things hurt so,

And we try disguising it not knowing the reason the heart wants to cry

It isn't crazy , not everything has a reason and one who cares also needs to sometimes let it show

Why be available if you are busy

Old fashioned and demanding as it may be,

We find time for things that matter according to me

Tagged

Ok so I am taking this tag of taps but with the warning that the songs maybe a lil half complete kinds with missing words!lol!But still enjoyed it....


1.Love at first sight

"Pehle nasha...

naya pyar hai anaya intezar,karlun main kya pana haal ae dile bekaraar ,mere dile bekaraar tu hi bta......."
.....
"Kyun aaj kal neend kum khwaab jyada hain...
Lagta khuda ka koi nake iraada hai,
kal tha fakeer dil aaj shahjyada hai,
kya mujhe pyaar hai hai ya..."

2.I love you
"Humein tumse pyaar hai kitna..."
..........
"kaate nhi katte yeh din yeh raat....
kehni thi tumse jo pyaar ki baat,
lo aaj main keh rhi hun...
I Love You"

3.Life is a mystery
"kaisi paheli hai yeh zindagani..."

4.Life is nothing but a moment
"ek din mit jayega maati ke mol..."
........
"pal pal pal pal har pal ,
kaise katega yeh pal har pal"

5.Far from the madding crowds
"chod aaye hum"

6.Absolute high
"aaj main upar
aasman niche
aaj main aage
zamaana hai piche.."

7.Walk by my side
"aa chalke tujhe main leke chalon,
ek aese dagar ke tale,
jahan ghum bhi na hon
aansu bhi naa ho
bas pyaar hi pyaar chale"
.....


"aage aage chalen hum piche piche geet sajna
tere mere hothon pe mithe mithe geet sajna"
......

"paas paas hum saath saath yum baatithe rahen....ek dooje ko yehi kehte rahen,

kabhi main kahun , kabhi tum kaho,ki maine tumhe yeh dil de diya..."

8.Consoling the self
"bhoolja jo hua usse bhoolja"

9.The long and winding roads...
"Ajeeb dastaan hai yeh...
kahan shuru kahan khatam"

10.Paradise

"Socho ke jheelon ke shahar ho

leheron pe apna ke ghar ho

hum jo dekhen sapne pyaare

sach hon saare"

..........

"awaara bhanware..."

11.The love makes the heart go crazy
"pyar diwana hota hai mastana hota hai,
har khushi se har ghum se begana hota hai"

12.Life is beautiful
" I am alive"!(Celien Dion)

13.Smile n Shine
"Musu Musu Hasi, Deu Malai Lai Musu Musu Hasi Deu
Zara Muskura De, Mukura De Zara Muskura De, Aye Khushi "

14.You are all I have
"Tu hi tu satrangi re"

15.Can't get enough of you
"teri meri, meri teri ek jaan hai,
saath tere rahenge sada,
ab hum naa honge juda
tumse milke aese laga
tumse milke"

16.Support
"Jag ne chhina mujhse mujhe jo bhi laga pyaara
tum haar ke dil apna yeh jeet amar kardo
hotthon se chhulo tum,mere geet amar kardo"

17.Life is a dream
"khwabon ki yeh duniya hai khwabo mein hi rehna hai
waqt ne hamehsan yahan naye khel khele hain
kuch bhi ho jaye bas khsush rehna hai"

18.Dreams can get shattered
"tokarde tokarde ho gaya tha har sapna jab vo tootha.."

19.Lift all broken pieces and try again
"bikhare tokadon mein allah ki marji ka manjar paayega"

20.Work is bliss!
"Nirbal se ladai balwan ki yeh kahani hai diye ki aur toofan ki"

21.Fly away
"udta hi firun in hawaon mein kahin, ya main jhool jaun in ghataon mein kahin,
ek kardun aasman aur zameen"

22.Destiny
"Rahe koi laakh pardon mein ,dare sharamse,
nazar koi laakh chuke sanam se,
aa hi jaata hai dil jis pe aana hota hai"

Random Writing Test:)

Usually I blog when I have something to say.Something stays in mind my for few hours if not few days. But this one is different. This is random to nothingness blog!Lwt's see what comes out in 15mins!

Sometimes you get overwhelmed when you realise how much you are loved
Sometimes you wish you could give that bit more instead of being lazy
Sometimes the best of things happen when all seems hazy
Sometimes you fear going crazy

The day doesn't end as it starts
Moods are like shades
Joy comes as sorrow fades
The teacher of life gives unexpected grades


So never despair or fear
Its ok to indulge, buy that new dress
It's ok to relax, no need to overstress
And of your leisure freely confess

For after some time with double vigor you will work
Coz leisure feel even better after works' pleasure
All moments with loved one's being an equal treasure
For love and work have no measure

Books

"Little Women" is a must read for all females and for all males who want to understand them.
What's so good about it is that it so wholesome and clean and pure. An instinctive "feel good" book though not necessary completely happy. But it covers everything, relations, aspirations and emotions.
Francis Bacon rightly said,

“Some books are to be tasted; others swallowed; and some to be chewed and digested.”

This is one to be chewed and digested and cherished in the heart. It's very vital what we read 'coz we imbibe certain characteristics based on that. So it makes sense to read some books which would mould us better. Of course if we strive deep enough we will find good or bad in any book but it's more likely to get good in this book. But I feel even Enid Blyton is splendid for any age 'coz long forgotten lessons of purity and goodness do come back to you in it sometimes ...Isay that from experience! Even without that, it's always good to read your childhood favs once in a while - gives a kind of security and childlike carefreeness.

"Brida" is another masterpiece-the author holds you gently and takes you out of this world while showing you parts of this world which you missed out while in it. It's a miracle how such a book is written!

Of course there are too many good books for me to write about...books almost always seem to keep me good company!

Little strokes fell great oaks

It feels good to be appreciated...it's strange how sometimes we feel no one notices or cares about the little things that we seem to toil over or take pride in but mark my words-that is never so. So it's best to do each little task with full vigor.
Cricket shows this...take time to notice sometimes how fielders give their all to save even a run and not just in crunch situations but as a habit.
But then I also feel we mustn't overdo it-I mean if a class player gets badly injured before a vital game in order to save a non-match threatening run, then won't it be better if he taken little care of himself also?
So it's OK to take a holiday now and then to rest yourself when required especially when you know you are not at a crucial stage. But when you do work, give your best and never be discouraged by thinking that "this matters to no one". It always does for "little strokes fell great oaks"

Food for thought!

Some of the best sayings I have read...credit goes to Sunday TOI....just
collecting my fav ones.......

"Pure sentiment is everything.With it, nothing can fail, without it nothing can succeed"

"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection and not a fountain , to show them we love them not when we feel like it but when they do"

"Advice is like snow- the softer it falls, the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind"

"Never pretend to a love you do not feel, for love is not ours to command"

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open"

"Relationships are how we relate to others"

"To help other, it is enough to perfect your art"

"Even if two people are together, it doesn't mean that either can forget that each has a life of their own also"

"One of the reasons people hold onto memories so tightly is because memories are the only things that don't change when everything else does"

PG Express 2

We come back in circles.......a year has gone by since I joined here......and now again I see interviews being held...brings back a nostalgia and makes me think back on how life has been here.

How I have begun to love my institute with time.......it's given me a lot.....gone is the laid back attitude and last minute rushes(OK to some extent only), it's replaced with a passion to work and work satisfaction....
The second semester started on hard work and serious attitude...right from hols...with the project which rescued me away from low confidence.
Every moment has been unique and there have been so many learning experiences...
At each new thing to learn and I would groan.."how can I possibly do this?" and then with great guidance and encouragement , I would move on...pestering some friends a lot also by talking about nothing else but the work assigned! I remember the days of staying back and working when all were free to chill out.But it was worth it.Then suddenly it would work and I would be delighted!And so the process cycle continued!

Then came my fav subjects...EE and AI.....loved the humanities subject so much...always felt most attentive and passionate about it...love "writing" again...even the 5000 word essay!
It probably made me ready to take up challenges in all other subjects just knowing that I could do this also...and it came also in a way so fairy like....when I could find no elective to go to and just sat for 1 class of this by chance and got hooked! Enjoyed discussions with teacher....enjoyed presentations and even regular classes.....it brought the inner me.

Loved working in partners in AI assignments....as if creating something!Loved studying the subject also....
The exciting next part was the Ed board..something just for me....impulsively joined it and loved it!My second experience in a different team now!

Loved the snatched out moments on pleasure also...visits to PVR saket, green park,moments of telling all with friends , necafe discussions.....
and beautiful moments of being understood and silence also.....
The reunion of old college....like a wish come true...
strange that i have to a stage of being able to call it "old college"..but happens....

with time everyday situations, places and people

come in front of our queue of attention

....And a passion is in its buds for me...photography!
And may be finally dance also!
and its been a sem of lots and lots of blogging and self dependence and growth also(more and more food lol!) .
And a sem which culminated beautifully with a perfect birthday and normal result(at least good in all my fav subjects and as expected in others) :)

And now PG express continues with summers......
Love being at my institute even in evenings...second home...the lab!